I'll admit it, I'm a "do it all" kind of girl. By this, I mean that I love doing it all. I am happiest when my google calendar is seven different colors and none of it is white. As an example for you, my June calendar on Google had two days that didn't have any colors on it.
I was thriving y'all.
However, I began to realize as the month winded down that I wasn't thriving.
I was exhausted.
Now don't get me wrong, I still love my busy calendar and the lifestyle I live for the most part. But, y'all. I had to learn to chill out.
I was running on coffee by the fifteenth because I had no downtime, what that schedule doesn't reflect is I was also taking summer classes during that time and would have to push those to the backburner in order to get everything done.
Not my best choice.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, I'm learning that I can't have it all.
I can't do well in my classes work as much as I want and do fifteen activities with my friends a week. It's simply not possible. I have to be willing to sacrifice something (that isn't my grade) in order to make it work.
I can't overdo it.
Guys, I long to overdo it.
Because I've realized I sometimes find my worth in overdoing it. In the perfection. In the "You're juggling so much", or "I don't know how you do it"s I get from people I know. I define myself by an unattainable standard I'll never reach because I believe I can do it all.
Newsflash: I can't. And neither can you.
I do know the one who can, however. Rest in this, my lovely overdoing perfection seekers. You're never going to be perfect. but the one who is and can and does do it all, carries you when you can't. Rest upon His shoulders and rejoice in the fact He does it so you don't have to.
That being said, my schedule for July is pretty much as candy coated as the June one above, but a goal I have for July is to make intentional time to chill out, and I guess that's what I'm suggesting you do as well. I'm not saying you have to cut your activities in half, but be aware of how your body is responding to the amount of things you're putting it through.
It's okay to say no to an activity if your body is aching to sleep a little more than usual. It is okay to not have every day for the rest of the summer booked with an activity. It is okay if your life has downtime that isn't like the downtime you see on Instagram.
And I am telling myself this just as much as I'm writing it down.
To all my fellow "do it all" girls out there, remember, we can't do it all, or at least do it all well. We have to give ourselves grace in the imperfections and rest in knowing it will all go on without us doing it all.
Don't overdo it, ladies.
You're enough, even when you need to take a break
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